im on the right track baby

here i am in my bed in aarons house without an apartment and all my stuff packed away in his moms garage and nothing hanging up and nothing settled. but you know? it feels right. i thought i would feel much more strange than this. but something tells me...that little beat in my heart and the small voice in my head...something tells me that i am in the proper place at the proper time. that this path is the correct one. dont look back or turn around. dont get off the wrong exit. this is the road. keep driving.

also if i could. id love to thank Aaron particularly. for all his hard work. this is right and he is right.

What type of day are you having? A very life changing and abnormal one

Was there anyone who "made your day"? I did! By making this huge change!

Are you liking how you look today? Yes and no

Do you have anyone crushing on you? Hopefully Aaron?

Have you ever eaten a bug? no

Are you vegeterian? nope, I very much like my chicken and turkey thank you

When was the last time you kissed someone? just today i kissed my love

Have you ever had something stuck between your teeth, but no one decided to tell you? YES

Are you a mother or a father? no but i am pining after babies lately

When was your last paycheck? it will be Friday and then.... im truly hoping Disneyland pays the next one

How many pets do you have? none

What kind of toothpaste do you use? the cheapest

Are you closer to being rich or poor? poor but i think its a state of mind

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? nope

What was the last gift someone gave you? oh good gravy i don't remember

Do you appreciate that person? if i remembered i would!

Are you on any type of drugs? never and never will thanks

Are you in love? with my whole heart i am

Have you ever been in love? see above

Do you even believe in love? i really do

How many things are you really thinking about right now? thousands and more. life is really different right now

Did you talk to anyone you didn't like today? nope

Do you like picnics? who wouldn't??

Have you finished school yet? high school is done and some college is behind me

What is/was your worst subject? all the subjects were fun and pretty easy except for math

What's your father's middle name? owen

Are you American? yes sir

Who are you voting for? oh gosh, do i have to choose any of them?

What kind of mood are you in? im just tired basically

Are you waiting for anything? YES

Are you going to bed after this? im in bed as we speak!

What book are you currently reading? Neverwhere by Neil Gaiman

What song did you last listen to? christmas music!

What movie is in your DVD player? no dvd player but doctor who is all over my iphone right now

How many windows are open in your computer? 3

Are you a very stressed out person? no

How old is your mom? 44

Has your mom ever been on television or in the paper? both!

Is This Real Life?

I'll be out of Salt Lake City in 2 weeks! I can't believe it. I'm praying to the universe this works. Please. Please. Please.

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oh what joy is this

Today was an all day work event! Eight in the morning till nine at night! I shouldn't complain as Aaron has been working 12-14 hour days all week. On to more exciting things however....

I am going to continue with some things I am grateful for as it is Thanksgiving here in just a bit.

-Singing Austin to sleep today. I am so grateful I had the chance to take care of this sweet little soul. He has taught me so much. After a bath today we stood in his room and I sang him my favorite Disney songs. He just looked at me and smiled with his sweet little eyes. I cannot wait to have children and Austin has shown me how wonderful it can be.

-Getting to the cash register to buy something you have been waiting to buy for months is wonderful. Knowing you have the money and its about to be in YOUR closet is a top feeling for me personally. But! What is even better? Having the item be way less in price than you expected! That happened to me a couple times today. I wouldn't say I am all about material goods but a cute sweater is definitely something to be thankful for.

-Aaron. What can I say about him? He is my best friend. This week he went out and surprised me with a new battery for my scooter. I didn't see it coming and it meant so much to me. I hope I never get tired of these little things he does for me to show me he cares. He is my best friend and I am so excited to see the kinds of things he does in California. I have a feeling he is going to flourish there.

-My family! I say this a lot but really.
I am grateful for my mom for finding an apartment for us and for really helping me with the things in life that are important. Even from far away she makes life so easy. To me she is fearless and I want to get better at being that way.
My dad is such a sweet heart. Life has been strange lately in that my step mom and my sister do not get a long. He has been doing a good job lately of not forcing a relationship between us and her and I think, though it should have been like that from the beginning...its better late than never. But he is always checking up on me and making sure I am alright and he has been so supportive about California.
Lauren! What can I say! She is a hoot. My best buddy and fellow dreamer. We may not always get a long but when we get a long? We really get a long:)

-The job at Disneyland. I know I don't have it yet. I don't even have an interview! But here is the thing. I am ready. I am making the jump. I am changing my life drastically. This has been in the works for SO long. I am finally doing it and I know the universe has heard me. It is seeing and aware that I am taking the necessary steps to live out a dream and I always believe that people who take risks are rewarded. If it is not my time for this than it is not my time. But I won't dare regret the decision I made to follow a dream. How could I?

-Good friends. Ellesse and Tyler have been my steady friends this summer and I am so grateful for that. I have a feeling no matter what directions my life take those two will always be in my life.

-Improvinators! My last performance is tomorrow. I am so sad about it. How amazing that I was able to a part of a troupe of hilarious actors? Improv and sketch comedy are what I want to do as my career and it was just what I needed to make me feel confident and ready for it. I hope that I can do it in my life professionally and if not than I hope I can always come back and perform with them. I am so happy I was a part of it.




well thats all for now folks!

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A more certain uncertain future:)

We have a future apartment on hold for us! I am beyond happy! We can move in on the 21st! It's going to be a but strange not having a home for a whole but we can work through it! Anyways, I just wanted to share the good news!!! Hurray!

to add to the closet

Things about me I know for sure

When you are young it is true that you are still finding out things about yourself. Right now however I have figured out some things about myself that I know for sure.
1. I'm not good at listening to directions. I prefer to learn by doing. For example.... Whenever I am learning to play a new board game, which happens often with Aarons family, I totally tune out the directions and I find I learn quickly by watching everyone else play and then trying myself.
2. I am good at first impressions. Not to be pompous but I have heard this from many people and I know I am because I make sure of it.
3. I am good at seeing both sides in anything.
4. I respect people's religions and their beliefs. I may not agree but I will not argue with you or fight you on anything or try to make you see my point of view. Religion is a very personal thing and I know some people really need it and I respect that.
5. I love ice cream.
6. I love simplicity in my life. I don't want a big house or a car or tons of extra things. People and memories are what are most important.
7. I'm still getting totally comfortable with being me. I am learning to love all the different parts of my personality and I'm getting better at showing it to others.
8. I can't wait to have a baby. Seriously.
9. I love making people laugh. I love being goofy. Improv is what I want to do with my whole life. I dream of being on Saturday Night Live or having a career like Catherine Tate. I know it's my calling.
10. I do not smoke or drink. Not because I think it's devilish but because I do not like what those things turn people into. I like to hold myself to high standards:)

Those are just a couple things I know for sure. I'm sure there is more and of course there is much more I'm still figuring out!

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Things I Am Thankful For

My gloves! I found out that layering two of my gloves works in keeping me warm and my hands still functional!
Grass laundry fragrance from H&H.... It's so amazing how good it makes my clothes smell! I'm going to have to stock up before California.
Movies... I am getting so excited for all the movies coming out lately. I love seeing them all with my sister and getting in for free since she works there!
Floss... Ive been so good for the past year. I hope my gums are feelin it.
79 cent pot pies... I know it sounds gross but these things are delicious and filling and most importantly... Cheap!
My legs and feet... Walking home today made me appreciate the fact that I CAN walk!
Hair extensions! I love them. I don't care how superficial they are... I enjoy my long fake hair!




That's all for now! I'll post again about being grateful since it's the month of Thanksgiving after all!

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Emo-tion-al

Today has been strange. I'm really happy with myself and the person I am and though I am not perfect I know that's it's okay. Today however, I realized that I don't have very many friends that would call me a best friend. I have a couple who I'm really close to but they have other people they are even closer to. Anyways, I just felt kind of lonely and sad. I know I have my family and my sister and Aaron, but sometimes I wish I had another person that called me their number one that wasn't obligated to. California will be a nice place to make some more friends I think. Maybe I was just bored today though. Enough of the pity party! I packed today and got a lot of clothes boxed up which is a huge deal because I have way too many clothes. Also, I got some calls about the couch I am selling. Hopefully some one buys it! Well, that's all for today:) I promise my next posts won't be such downers!

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Quickly Before I Leave

- I love behind the scenes photos of Who.

To Buy

- I do not care how many people have these stupid Longchamp bags....I want one!! Its perfectly simple and big enough for the multitude of things I usually carry in the fall like gloves, extra hats and various other essentials I don't bring a long in the summer.

- Polka Dot tights! I am ordering these exact ones with my next pay check. How fantastic are they?! I plan on wearing these with every skirt I own. All I need are some chunky heeled shoes!

- Tweed Jacket!So I can dress up as the eleventh doctor discreetly in every day life. H&M has a really great and relatively cheap one for sale. Hopefully it will be at the new store opening up this week in Murray.

Other things needed for fall and winter wardrobe is...

- New glasses. I am thinking big, round and bright pink. I am getting a little tired of people commenting on my hipster ones. I actually need them!

- A big skirt like coat. Or any coat with beautiful detail that isn't too heavy. I won't be needing anything heavy in California!

- A pencil skirt. I just need a new one. I think I might buy a really gorgeous green one from Anthropologie soon and wear it for my California job hunt!


Well that's all on the fashion front for now folks!

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Three Week Countdown

Dear me! Blogging is very hard without internet! Luckily I have found a great new place with free wifi and delicious coffee!
Well friends, all one of you (which is me), three weeks to go and it's California bound! Gosh I am terrified and excited. No place set to live just yet and no for sure job either! This is either going to be awesome or it's going to totally fail. Really hoping for the awesome. Anyways, here of course is what's on my mind today..

- Pinterest is a lifesaver! I am always so bored at work and it's the only thing that keeps me going.
- Doctor Who tattoo coming soon! I have decided to just let my nerd flag fly. Who cares what others think?
- Friends. I really hope I make some good ones in California. I feel like I don't have very many and there are a lot of reasons as to why but it makes me sad none the less.
- New clothes! I should stop buying clothes but honestly...I can't.